i should be continuing my art project, but ive given in to procrastination. like always. i cant seem to be doing anything right lately. life seems boring now too. but at least i feel a bit more accomplished after running this morning. maybe badminton next week?

what will be will be.

the futures not ours to see.

ive been thinking of that song lately. its an old song with a lot of meaning in it. love it. im still worrying about the future and all that. i really shouldnt. i should also get my butt off this chair and start being more productive. but ive been a good kid lately. i havent been online in a while nor have i talked on aim or anything. thus i have become anti-social this year. actually, i think ive always been. i dont seem to fit in anywhere either. i really miss having best or close friends who you can talk to anytime about anything. yea, i have a group i love dearly, but i feel so excluded. i never really get to talk to them or get to know them either. not like all the others. and all those who i once were really good with has their own friends now too. so i dont know where i stand. i feel kinda lost. but this is life. deal with it.